My Creative Struggle VII

26/04/17

3:48pm: Homie,

I’m doing well. Mentally rather decent these past few days. Since coming to terms with what I witnessed at the skatepark I totally have taken a more chilled approach to music. I don’t think I’m fully chill in the sense that I just make music whenever, I’m still cranking the alarm clock for 4-4:30am, cause I am without a doubt determined to be the next @Drake. But the way in which I spend my time is more chilled. I’ve started doing vocal warm ups before rapping. Yep, if you’re a neighbour of mine and reading this, it’s not a cat it’s me singing high notes in the shower along to the VocalWarmUp App… You can thank @Usher.

If you’re wondering “Why @Usher?” I was reading “Retire Young, Retire Rich” by @Robertkiyosaki and it was a chapter presenting an alternative to saving money. Mr.@Robertkiyosaki explains that in contrast to poor dad, his rich dad wouldn’t put such an emphasis on saving his money, instead he would spend it on things that would grow him as a person. He wasn’t buying fancy clothes (or new nike’s from the Melbourne HYPE store, Tom) he was buying books, enrolling in seminars and using the money to talk to other professionals. Suddenly it just clicked, I’ve been putting 10% of every pay check away each week for more than a year now and I have just saved it… Which yes is good, but I haven’t put the money to work. Anyway, I remember stumbling across @Usher‘s Masterclass on Facebook, it cost money so at the time I thought no, but after reading this I immediately jumped online and bought in.

Shoes
– Material Flashin’ – The New Nikes from Melbz

It’s a class on performance, and this dude can perform. To be honest, I’ve never actually been a fan of @Usher, but I have mad respect for his work ethic, achievement and discipline to taking what he does to the next level. Considering I really want to bring a next level experience to my live shows in the future I was keen. So the last lesson was on vocal warm ups, and since I want to be rapping for a long time I started doing it.
As well as doing vocal warm ups I’ve been throwing some super basic Hip-Hop Dance moves into each day. This has been super fun considering I enjoy a good boogie. I’ve never done any formal dancing, and if you know me, I’m a clumsy jelly legs most days! However, I’m determined to at least get some cool grooves down so that I can grow as a performer, also, I just genuinely love grooving to music and so knowing a few moves is helping me to get into the tunes even more.

This kinda does progress to something that I think needs addressing in my life right now.
My health. Body health. Like what I’m putting in and how it’s being treated. I think I’ve done a good job of working alongside the needs of my inner-self which I continue to do daily by journalling, but man I think my body is deserving of some serious lovin’… Don’t take that weird though. I know you took that weird. I think I thought it weird first… Please keep reading, that wasn’t funny.

Earlier this year, when I moved into my new place and became a fresh single homie I was doing quite well. In the sense that I was prepping meals, working super hard at music and landed a new job making coffee. However, somewhere along the lines I got twisted down a path of binge eating WHAM! @Troysaunders1 my housemate lost out on 3 bowls of his milo cereal because of me. What I mean is, I remember so clearly coming home at 12:30am, grabbing a prepped burrito from the fridge, eating it, and sitting at the counter with a box of milo cereal and a bottle of Milk topping up my bowl twice. Yep, this was 12:30am. When I got up for work at 4am, I was still drunk as a skunk off sugar. Will admit, not my proudest moment.

I have had more binge experiences since then, although by believing that bingeing just wasn’t me, like smoking isn’t me I don’t have a big drama with it anymore. But I forced my body through a lot of crap, and continue even now to eat crap here and there, I really think that it needs a break from it. Like I swear my body is yellin’ “Bro, chill. You’re an animal! I can’t handle you treating me like this and I’m gone fuck you up if you keep it up.”
Considering I want to be the next @Kanyewest too, I need to start listening.

As you’re probably aware my coffee intake is pretty consistent, I haven’t had a break from it in a while. Normally when I do have a break I feel so so good! I think that’ll be my first step, followed by a little research into healthier meals and daily scheduled exercise.

This is totally going to take some teeth grit, I will cry tears not being able to eat more helpings, or having coffees at work. However I’ve got my sights set on being the best I can be to reach new heights as a person, so I’ll do anything.

Stay tuned via Facebook/Instagram/Snapchat (Tooooomato 5o’s) for more posts on how this adventure goes!

Also, iff you want to see something dumb, head to @professor_paul on Insta G and check the picture with tetley tea bags, I genuinely thought I was creating comedy history… Which is certainly not what happened, but I still laugh to myself.

Love,
Professor Paul

P.s if you’ve had a problem with over eating and/or just being in a health dump, please drop comments or knowledge about your experiences here of via Facebook. Cause no joke, I was only getting a taste for how shit Binge eating can be. I genuinely care.

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