My Creative Hustle VII

Thursday 29/06/17 | 7:36am

Right now I’m full up on mixed fruit, apricots, 3 bowls of muesli, a croissant and some loaf from work. And if you’ve been hanging with me for much of this year or heard my latest song ‘Nicotine Fiend’ you’ll know that I’ve been struggling with binge eating. This week it has come back in a big way and I’m sitting here feeling like a balloon. I’m not going to bag on too much about this experience because I talk about it a lot as it is but I am right now at a low point where I’m feeling the shame, frustration and failure part of the binge eating experience.

In this state, I have little motivation to hustle. So I want to offer my 5 key ways to keep hustling even in your lowest emotional states. Right now I honestly feel shit, and I believe I will be able to draw on what truly does inspire me in this particularly rough time.

1 – Dreams/Goals

This is a real big part of what keeps me going at high and low points. It’s what I want to achieve in my life. For me at the core of it all I want to overcome all odds and achieve success in music. I want to be a Rapper that creates music heard on a world-wide scale. Ultimately it’s a selfish goal, but nonetheless it drives me harder because of how impossible it seems, I want to do it 10 fold just because I want to prove it can be done. I believe my favourite Rapper is @logic301 because he has that similar trait.

Focusing on your impossible goals and allowing yourself to fantasise on the potential successes to come will give you a reason to Hustle. Because let’s face it, why do something in the hard times when there isn’t a reason? There’s got to be some reason as to why we grit our teeth and keep going, so use your dreams as that reason. Even though I haven’t achieved my biggest dreams yet the sense of working toward them even in the hard times is exhilarating. It makes me feel like I’m one of the few who can stick it through.

2 – Pep Talk (I Can Do It)

I frequently host these 1 on 1 meetings with myself everywhere I go and if it weren’t for my mum teaching me this phrase I wouldn’t be as optimistic with my life. So, never underestimate the power of saying to yourself “I can do it”. Self-affirmation, it’s huge stuff. I often find myself staring straight into my eyes in the toilet room at work giving myself the inspiration to get through the shift so I can go home and work on my music. It’s the key to pushing through. Right now, you can apply it to any struggle you’re going through. For example: I can do this. I CAN get this blog posted despite having worked for 10 hours today with an ever increasing head ache. I WILL make it it happen.

Every time you hear yourself saying you Can’t do something stop yourself and rephrase your sentence because, you CAN, just you choose not to. No excuses.

3 – Letting out a ROAR!

I don’t care if you’re a female reading this and think “I can’t roar” because if you don’t want to roar, scream! It’s amazing, I actually saw this being done on the documentary of Tony Robbin’s ‘I Am Not Your Guru’, and when I was at a low I summoned the courage and roared in my house. Then I opened my door to the street and roared there too. It’s actually crazy how satisfying it can feel. We let so much crap just build up sometimes that it piles and piles and we don’t let it out because we think society frowns on letting out all our emotions. Man, letting it out is refreshing, and to be honest I’m going to do it right now while Carlos is editing behind me, film his reaction and upload that to my Facebook page. Okay truth I was doing it predominantly to get a reaction out of Carlos but man, it still feels good, especially if you’re a somewhat reserved person. Just try it.

Check out my attempt to roar !

4 – Gary Vee+Gary Vee+Gary Vee

I watch Gary Vee in my down time, sometimes when I’m having breakfast, after a spot of lunch and even when I’m meal prepping. Honestly watching his clips for me is incredible because I aspire to be like Gary. He is a crazy role model to me and after watching his videos I always take something away from it. Whether it’s a new idea or perspective I hadn’t thought about/let myself be exposed to or just some genuine inspiration, I always feel G’d up watching him work. It really helps me to find an extra gear many times. So find remind yourself of your inspirations and the people you look up to.

5 – Quit thinking


When I think too much I get anxious. When I get anxious I tend to halt all production. Thinking is the hardest thing to stop sometimes, but once you do, you can push past the thinking stage and realise you don’t need to think anymore so you continue doing. After a while the feelings go away and you realise you’re okay.

I tend to write down what’s on my mind each day, sort of like a check list but less definitive and I go through and chip away at each of those things. When I start thinking too much I like to just look at one of the things on my list and do it, without giving it any thought! Just get straight into it, don’t contemplate it, don’t consider nothing, just pure do.

Nike, Just Do It… You know what, I’m going to print that out and put it on my wall.
And I’m not even going to think about it, I’m going to do it right now. This moment.

 

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Oh yeah, and look at your wall of inspiration.

Boom, that’s my 5 tips.

In all honesty, I believe I still need to be exercising each of these points more because lately I’ve been falling short and making excuses for my eating habits. But truthfully these points really help me keep hustling even when I feel average and think about tapping out.

I’d love to know your inspiration for hustling even in the hard times, so drop me a comment or DM to chat some more.

“You can be anything you want to be, ‘cept the person you want to be” – Logic

Professor Paul

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Nicotine Fiend Feat. SAB

14/06/17 | 8:07am
– NICOTINE FIEND –
In this blog I want to open up about the meaning behind my verse. Put it all on the table. It’s embarrassing and to others might seem stupid, but let’s go!

Ya’ll who don’t know me, I don’t smoke. So I’m not a Nicotine Fiend. However, earlier this year after I’d just split with my girlfriend, moved houses, changed jobs and released my second single ‘flo’ I started to slip. I didn’t slip into drugs or alcohol cause I’m not about that, but I slipped to something that I am about, food. To give you context, at this stage I was scheduling my life from the AM to the PM and put a lot of hours into my music. It required a fair amount of discipline and as I continued to try and balance these things I slowly started giving into comfort. Before I knew it food was one of the most prominent things on my mind, because it gave me a relief from the pressure. I let myself go a couple times and I distinctly remember eating a box of cookies, a bag of chips downing an energy drink and going through cheap coles tim tams like they were nothing in one sitting. That was my first crazy binge. And honestly, it was awful. From this moment it only got worse and I continued the behaviour. I started to reading ‘Brain Over Binge’ by Kathryn Hansen to try and change what I’d just dug myself into but even when I was really giving it a go, I would cave and wake up the next day not hungry. For about a week I didn’t know what hunger felt like anymore. It was actually scary. At this point I was fed up with how I was treating myself and my body, fed up that I wasn’t making a change. So I started to write. The first half of my verse is really a pent up frustration of the battle of overcoming my new found addiction to food. The second half came a little later on when I had gotten myself into a slightly better situation. It embodies my determination to overcome the addiction and not let it hold me down from smashing my dreams and goals. This has probably been the biggest emotional struggle for me this year.

I had people telling me left, right and centre that I shouldn’t worry about it, because it’s just food. You know, how can food be that bad for you. But I don’t think they understood the principle that ANYTHING can be addictive, and when you’re addicted to something it’s not a casual affair, it’s damn controlling! So no offence to those people but I didn’t listen to their advice, because eating habits once their learned will be carried on until you break them, and I knew that if I kept the habit of binge eating I would be the new Biggie. Much love to Biggie but that’s not how I see myself in the future in terms of size and weight. I happily see myself as becoming the rapper that he was, that dude is an OG bossman.

Even recently I have struggled to some degree with eating too much, however, I won’t tolerate binge eating now. I won’t tolerate eating bad foods regularly in my diet. I won’t tolerate relying on caffeine for long periods of time. I won’t tolerate it. Because if I do I will never beat my habits for the long term.
So, Nicotine Fiend is really Paul the Food Fiend.

My homie @searnbarness pipes in with his verse that gets me so G’d up. He really brings home the relentless attitude and paints a picture of what I want my life to look like. I’m inspired by his verse and in this process have learned a lot from him.
We actually go way back to Zephyr Street Acoustic club. I was 14 and he was 13 when we first met playing guitar in Hervey Bay. The guy oozes enthusiasm and has been truly a person I’ve enjoyed having in my inner circle. You are who you hang around, and I hope I have become a little more like Sean. He’s also predominantly 1/2 of SeaNic Sounds.

Anyway, this song is for you, if you struggle and feel like achieving something is impossible. This is us saying no matter what it is you can achieve it and it is worth it. For now and for the future.

I really love you for reading this, and if it relates to you please DM, comment, share, or like. I know I’m not the only one who goes through hard times and I love talking ’bout them, we all need to.

Life is uncomfortable, but we grow when we endure it so hang in there.

@professor_paul

Feature photo shot by @becshoots

My Creative Hustle VI

Thursday 08/06/17 | 9:51am

On Tuesday this week I realised just how much shit I’m in. I haven’t done anything wrong in terms of law, but I really got some perspective on the mountain I’m trying to climb.

It all started when I decided to head to a free APRA night in the valley where some guest speakers talked about accounting and tax for musicians/bands. I was fine, managing to get my head around the tax wasn’t too tricky, but as soon as @deenamusic started her presentation on budgets I could feel the intensity rise in my stomach. She was so REAL! I loved it, not sugar coating a dollar. Her experience working with @thejunglegiants was used as an example and the numbers were crazy. It really opened my eyes. It really made me realise where I am right now. Grassroots. I’m talking, it costs $20+ thousand to tour kinda numbers, where you break even or lose money. That’s what I made last year working 2 to 3 jobs. I have a big climb ahead.

The hunger inside of me begun to grow. My bike ride home consisted of ‘I can do this’ chanting in the cold wind. There’s nothing I want to do more than make rap music that I can tour and share with others, which made me realise all of the challenges ahead have to be faced and have to be climbed. I don’t have another option. So I tell myself I can do it. Because I know that I can and I want to.

This morning has been tricky. I am making a commitment to posting daily on social media, something I’ve never done before, and it’s cool but on the inside I’m totally freaking. I can feel the growing pains from so many directions right now. Rap, Blog, Vlog, Social Media. It’s crazy. I find that all I can do is grit my teeth and keep going. It’s definitely fun, and I enjoy making stuff but it’s also extremely hard. I have no idea what I’m doing. I’m literally just trying to better myself in every area I can.

I am smiling at the same time though, knowing that this is forcing me to grow is amazing. Because I’m out of my comfort zone, and that purely means I’m going to grow and I’m getting closer to that tour. I’m getting closer to that hit song. I’m getting tested. If I can push through this and the million other moments like it I can do anything. I already know that I can do anything.

If you see me looking all stressed out, I’m feeling intense but I am loving it. I couldn’t be more grateful for these challenges ahead of me. I am totally on the verge of crippling myself in copious amounts of escapism and binge eating, but I won’t. I will tough this out because that’s how my mum raised me, and what I’m fighting for is bigger than myself.

I’ve been reading ‘Jab, Jab, Jab Right Hook’ by @garyvee this week.
@_Instagav, @_dyllinger and @pineapplejam are still camping out in my lounge room. I love  having them around. And also @carlostrebilcock has been an insane help getting ‘Life Of PP’ off the ground. 100. We’re all keeping it 100. Also, big love to @becshoots for capturing my latest single artwork with @seanbarness. Seriously excited to put ‘Nicotine Fiend’ on the table.

And you, thank you for reading some of my story. I hope you keep up with the weekly updates and find it valuable to your life.

Even though life is crazy, I love you,

Professor Paul

My Creative Hustle V

29/05/17 | 6:22pm

@rickysaunders,

you are amazing. I am stoked to say that my house mate is the best homie out. El Ricko came down today and totally smashed the cleaning of our apartment. Not only did he clean/vacuum (including my bedroom) but he rearranged the lounge room and made me one happy dude. Little things like this are huge to me. I know it sounds like we are in a relationship when I talk about him sometimes and although we’ve been known to share a regular cuddle and a stray kiss it’s totally left at bromance. But I got so much love for this guy.

Love.

I wanna talk about that.

It’s something that we all need, and more importantly need to give.
I believe that love is something present in every type of relationship you create with a person. Whether it’s someone you’ve known since birth like your parents, a workmate, or the person at the bus stop with their earphones in we all have some relationship with them and because there’s a relationship, there’s love. Or is there?

I read a book back in 2016 called ‘The 5 Love Languages’ by Gary Chapman, and it was a huge insight into relationships for me. At the time I was reading it in hopes of being able to love my girlfriend better, and since the book is lined up for people in serious relationships it may be overlooked as something of value for everybody else. But I believe the concepts are 100 and really can be used in all relationships. So if you’re keen to give some love and really pour into/grow friendships/family connections keep reading and think about these concepts. I guarantee you by doing even one of them it will not make your situation worse.

Gary’s 5 languages:

Acts of Service, Physical Touch, Words of Affirmation, Quality Time, Gifts.

So here’s some examples of these 5 things:

What @rickysaunders did for me was an Act of Service. Without me asking he went ahead and took a load off of my life, and maybe he didn’t realise it but I felt very thankful and loved when he did that. The guy really saved me a lot of time and time is precious to me, so that spoke a million words. Let me stress, this language doesn’t mean you become a slave for someone and become their house made, it means that you show your love to them by taking a load off of their shoulders essentially when they don’t expect it.

It’s something that anyone can do. Is your mum/partner somebody who works really hard all the time and forever fixes the food for the family/cleans the house? Man, she’d proly not know what to do if you gave her some time off, so try cooking dinner and cleaning up afterwards, it might just be the highlight of her week! But remember, do it without expecting anything in return or making it known that you’re doing it because you’re such a good giver. Sit down, be HUMBLE and give.

Just briefly, Physical Touch is showing your affection through a hug, pats on the back or handshakes (in a relationship it’s like holding hands etc. Sex is a bit more complicated but it lives here too). Words of Affirmation is essentially being positive and encouraging another person with who they are in life right now, pointing out the good qualities in them and emphasising  how much they mean to you and the rest of the world (Try hand writing a letter to do this). Quality Time is literally no mobile phones or outside distractions and pure 1 on 1 with a person (walks, dinner, DnM’s, picnic). The last one is Gifts, and really is something you buy/make that you may not like AT ALL! But you buy/make it for your friend/family member because you’ve listened in conversation with them and know it’s something they’d love. I messed this up one time, I bought a caffeine molecule coffee cup to give to my bro Luke, but I ended up keeping it because really I wanted that cup from the start! (And plus, Luke really doesn’t dig chemistry… I kinda do).

The final layer to all this is that everybody receives love differently, rather, they understand some languages better than others. For example, I understand the language Acts of Service quite well and when somebody speaks that language (does an Act of Service for me) I feel extremely loved and appreciated. I believe this is because most of my life I’ve had to be fully independent in fixing my own dinners/lunches, organising my life and not having anyone else around to do it for me, that when someone comes in and says they’ll make me dinner or clean up the house I’m kinda like, what now? You’re going to do that? I thought I had to do that always and forever? The best way to get an idea of your love language is by taking this super short quiz. Once you’ve figured out what languages you understand best share them with your people figure out there’s, because what happens when you speak a language to someone who doesn’t understand it is you run into frustration and sadness very quickly.

To keep this post from reaching exponential lengths I’ve only elaborated on Acts of Services since it’s what happened to me 10 minutes before writing this post. I have barely scraped the surface of this topic too but I hope it’s encouragement to give more of a shit about the people in your life and show that you care. I’m certainly not the best lover out there but 100 want to keep striving for it everyday. Even if you never check this stuff out, what can you do to love more?

I love you,
Professor Paul

P.s Love is not supposed to be comfortable. When you give love to someone it can be hard, it can mean that you have to sacrifice your comfort for the betterment of the person you’re giving to. Love comes at a cost, and not always financial.

Feature Photo by @_dyllinger