Ment al Future

Wednesday 26/07/17 | 12:55pm

– The Scene –
I’m in my room having just finished a lunch that consisted of a pre-made BLAT, handful of apricots, nuts and dried fruits with a freshly brewed cup of Chai Tea and water to my right. Air is cool, but the sun is radiating plenty of light.

– Complication –
I can’t help but think about the things on my mind for the day. I wrote them down, one item is writing this blog and the others include editing the Vlog, glueing my desk together, calling my mum, meditating and working on some of Chloe’s music. Lately I’ve been thinking in the future a bunch, predicting what my emotions may be and trying to live in the present through them. If I’m honest it keeps me on edge/anxious and out of the present.

I love making lists for my day, because it helps me stay on track with what matters most to me, but I catch myself not getting engulfed in the current item and trying to predict future emotions. It seems that I am attempting to tip toe through life and plan my emotions by how I structure my day, however I have no control over that. For example I might be at work and be thinking about what the future may hold when I finish. It may be some work when I get home and therefore I brace myself right then for the feelings I think I’m going to get from doing work at home, which hasn’t even came to be yet! I’m not even reacting to the life around me I’m reacting to the imaginary life that doesn’t exist. I must admit it’s frustrating and I think I tend to do this most when I feel like life in the moment gets tough.

– Partial Resolution –
Right now I can’t say I have a ‘cure’ or really that I’ve searched into it much, but something I am doing which raises my spirits in general is choosing to be grateful in every moment. I find that by doing this I have to be alert to what is actually going on in the world. For example I am right now grateful for the warm beverage that is keeping my goosebumps at bay, as well as my record player that is currently playing a ‘Disclosure’ album while I’m writing this. I’m also grateful for the incredibly comfortable chair I’m sitting in that keeps my back aligned. On top of this I have a full stomach from eating lunch which means I am more than able to survive 4+ days if I were to go without food. I’m grateful for the air that I can feel coming through my nostrils giving me life to continue writing also. Etc. The list could be endless but ultimately I think being grateful in the moment can help align me again with what is actually going on and back to focusing on what I’m working on in the present.

I believe that’s why mindfulness meditation can be such a winner too when I’m struggling with a mind full of mess! I know that I need it more than ever in these moments and have to remind myself, future living is impossible and cannot be controlled.

– Conclusion –
Really, I aim to share this small experience with you because I think mental health is not talked about enough, and also because it helps me to deal with my issues. If you find yourself feeling a similar way I’d love to know how you deal with it and if you’ve found any effective ways of dealing with it. Always keen to link up.

your man with the long hair,
Professor Paul

 

Espresso, I love it

Wednesday 19/07/17 | 7:40am

To me Coffee is a tasty beverage, it gives me a total energy kick and I lurv the ‘specialty’ culture behind it (not that I really know how to describe coffee culture). I enjoy drinking it in cafe’s, reading while having a coffee or writing music while having a coffee. My interest with it stemmed from when I had my first cup at age 8 or 9. I was on a couple acres of land with my friends grandparents most weekends while mum was at work and we would always stop for morning tea and lunch.  I’m fond of those memories because that’s where I remember being introduced to black tea and on occasion instant Coffee. I was hooked! It definitely made my little body pump.

– Present Moment –

It’s that time again for coffee and fruit toast.
Today has been a small long black that’s got me totally buzzing! I have really been enjoying black coffee lately, which is funny because I always used to think it was hardcore, but seriously I don’t even need cream with my long black anymore. Just straight up Espresso and water baby. All last week I’ve had a short black each day and for anyone looking to get into coffee I would recommend trying it. Mainly because after a while you’ll start to notice the flavours of the espresso. When I used to read coffee descriptions that preached fruity citrus flavours with a hint of chocolate I was like waaaaah, I just taste bitter! But now I think I’ve gone full hipster mode and I can taste those subtleties better. Like I actually notice the difference between a single origin and a blend. It’s kinda cool, and really, I don’t have an urge to go back to my old standard the Flat White! Seriously milk based coffee just seems too underwhelming now, like I don’t get the coffee flavour coming through enough.

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Hittin’ ma soul

If you’ve never tried an espresso on it’s own, give it a go! Just remember to slurp it, that will make sure you get to taste the flavours better. Make it a real dirty slurp. Slurp it so much that the person opposite you in the cafe looks at you funny. If they do this, you’re in. Official hipster. Is hipster even a term anymore? I seriously don’t remember the last time I heard someone say Hipster. Moving on.

I’d like to add that I am committing to making one day of every week a coffee free day. Because I get ‘hooked’ it just kind of resets my tolerance, which means when I drink espresso again, I actually feel the effects and my body isn’t just always used to coffee. I will admit, there was a time in the year where I had 6 coffee’s in one day. I tell you now, it wasn’t pretty. Pass out on the lounge room floor kind of pretty. Plus when I woke I couldn’t stand the scrumptious taste of coffee for a good while. What a bummer.
So go hard! But watch out for the addictive side effects, some get it, some don’t…

I would definitely have to say Coffee is one of the things I love in life. I’m so grateful that it’s out there, but what’s more is sharing Coffee with friends. Coffee by yourself is cool, but it’s always going to be about who you share the experience with.

I’m interested, what’s your fave coffee?

Professor Paul

 

 

Lane Change

Thursday 13/07/17 | 8:55am

– Clarence Corner Books Shop Woolloongabba –

Man. It’s felt like ages since I’ve contributed to the blog. Although it’s probably been a mere 2 weeks my life really has taken a turn, a positive turn. Whilst sitting in the window of this banging bookshop I’ve finished reading a book and have decided it’s time to do a little sharing.

I would have to say it started with spending a day with mum a couple weeks back. I took an early morning train to Nambour where we then set out to Malaney and enjoyed catching up and spending some quality time together. It really was a good day, she was super accommodating as we wandered through op-shops and book stores. It was actually at one of the book stores where I bought the book I just finished ‘good bye, things’ by Fumio Sasaki. I don’t think I actually opened the pages of it for a couple days, but when I did, I was hooked.
Fumio Sasaki wrote in such an easy uncomplicated manner, on a topic I had been interested in before. Minimalism.

When I moved out of my old apartment at the start of the year I had packed all my things away except for 6 pairs of clothes a book, and my computer (there were some more accessories but that’s about it). All of my stuff was either in cardboard boxes or garbage bags, and for a couple weeks I was sleeping on a yoga mat. As it turns out. I really enjoyed this. I loved this way of living and was having a blast. The idea that I really didn’t need much to survive and be happy was incredibly freeing. However I didn’t associate this with being minimalist or rather a way of life, so it wasn’t long before I moved into my new apartment and all my luxuries were unpacked. In a short amount of time I was also earning more money from taking on a new job, which interestingly was around the time when my binge eating problem started to take off.

Fumio really inspired me. So much so that I looked at my current room and all the things in it and decided, it’s time I make a change. First thing to go was my big desk, which was replaced with my small milk crate desk inspired by my favourite cafe @littleroguemelbourne. I went through all of the stuff in and of the desk, discarding left, right and centre, photographing receipts and old documents so that I could discard the filing cabinet. I also moved onto clearing out my wardrobe and shrinking it to 3 pairs of shoes, 7 shirts, 9 pant items and the Professor Paul outfit. The result, is right here:

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You probably won’t notice a big change cause I didn’t show a before shot, but these mirrors used to be covered in pictures. You couldn’t see anything.

Not only did I sigh a huge breath of relief on Sunday evening when I went to bed but when I woke up on Monday morning I was ecstatic. I wanted to wake up. I was certainly excited because something new had just happened but it was a change that really affirmed a new stage in my life.
I felt like I was moving in a new positive direction.
Throughout the week I continued to gain inspiration from Fumio’s words and found more things that were really unnecessary to my life. Yesterday, old records for my record player were thrown out and from there I decided that I also didn’t need as many coffee mugs for myself anymore. I have seriously gained a sense of relief and I’ve actually started feeling the happiest I’ve felt since the start of the year. My new friend Elcid came around last night and we had a casual jam that resulted in writing a new song together that may never amount to anything but felt incredible to create.

From writing in this blog I’ve gone from feeling a creative struggle, to hustling as hard as I can and never feeling good enough, to feeling a sense of peace and not a sense of self-consciousness.

I don’t believe minimalism is the only way to experience these feelings, I realise there are other things like travelling, exploration and closeness with God that produce them too, however, this for me has seemed to really light a fire. Still, it’s very early days in terms of living this way, but I believe it’s something that I want to continue exercising. I can’t believe the freedom I’m feeling. So if you’re going through some rough times, feeling un-motivated, un-inspired, un-happy, sick of your life and down right depressed or just low on self-worth, I would highly recommend flicking through the pages of this book. No pressure, but from one human being to another, I want to share the idea with you.
I also want to put it out there that I would love to meet Fumio Sasaki in the future, sit down with him and thank him for being a bold individual and inspiring me.

Thank you for reading this, I truly am grateful for your attention and hope I’ve brought value today!

Come say hey, in whatever way, I love ya.

Professor Paul