Espresso, I love it

Wednesday 19/07/17 | 7:40am

To me Coffee is a tasty beverage, it gives me a total energy kick and I lurv the ‘specialty’ culture behind it (not that I really know how to describe coffee culture). I enjoy drinking it in cafe’s, reading while having a coffee or writing music while having a coffee. My interest with it stemmed from when I had my first cup at age 8 or 9. I was on a couple acres of land with my friends grandparents most weekends while mum was at work and we would always stop for morning tea and lunch.  I’m fond of those memories because that’s where I remember being introduced to black tea and on occasion instant Coffee. I was hooked! It definitely made my little body pump.

– Present Moment –

It’s that time again for coffee and fruit toast.
Today has been a small long black that’s got me totally buzzing! I have really been enjoying black coffee lately, which is funny because I always used to think it was hardcore, but seriously I don’t even need cream with my long black anymore. Just straight up Espresso and water baby. All last week I’ve had a short black each day and for anyone looking to get into coffee I would recommend trying it. Mainly because after a while you’ll start to notice the flavours of the espresso. When I used to read coffee descriptions that preached fruity citrus flavours with a hint of chocolate I was like waaaaah, I just taste bitter! But now I think I’ve gone full hipster mode and I can taste those subtleties better. Like I actually notice the difference between a single origin and a blend. It’s kinda cool, and really, I don’t have an urge to go back to my old standard the Flat White! Seriously milk based coffee just seems too underwhelming now, like I don’t get the coffee flavour coming through enough.

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Hittin’ ma soul

If you’ve never tried an espresso on it’s own, give it a go! Just remember to slurp it, that will make sure you get to taste the flavours better. Make it a real dirty slurp. Slurp it so much that the person opposite you in the cafe looks at you funny. If they do this, you’re in. Official hipster. Is hipster even a term anymore? I seriously don’t remember the last time I heard someone say Hipster. Moving on.

I’d like to add that I am committing to making one day of every week a coffee free day. Because I get ‘hooked’ it just kind of resets my tolerance, which means when I drink espresso again, I actually feel the effects and my body isn’t just always used to coffee. I will admit, there was a time in the year where I had 6 coffee’s in one day. I tell you now, it wasn’t pretty. Pass out on the lounge room floor kind of pretty. Plus when I woke I couldn’t stand the scrumptious taste of coffee for a good while. What a bummer.
So go hard! But watch out for the addictive side effects, some get it, some don’t…

I would definitely have to say Coffee is one of the things I love in life. I’m so grateful that it’s out there, but what’s more is sharing Coffee with friends. Coffee by yourself is cool, but it’s always going to be about who you share the experience with.

I’m interested, what’s your fave coffee?

Professor Paul

 

 

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Lane Change

Thursday 13/07/17 | 8:55am

– Clarence Corner Books Shop Woolloongabba –

Man. It’s felt like ages since I’ve contributed to the blog. Although it’s probably been a mere 2 weeks my life really has taken a turn, a positive turn. Whilst sitting in the window of this banging bookshop I’ve finished reading a book and have decided it’s time to do a little sharing.

I would have to say it started with spending a day with mum a couple weeks back. I took an early morning train to Nambour where we then set out to Malaney and enjoyed catching up and spending some quality time together. It really was a good day, she was super accommodating as we wandered through op-shops and book stores. It was actually at one of the book stores where I bought the book I just finished ‘good bye, things’ by Fumio Sasaki. I don’t think I actually opened the pages of it for a couple days, but when I did, I was hooked.
Fumio Sasaki wrote in such an easy uncomplicated manner, on a topic I had been interested in before. Minimalism.

When I moved out of my old apartment at the start of the year I had packed all my things away except for 6 pairs of clothes a book, and my computer (there were some more accessories but that’s about it). All of my stuff was either in cardboard boxes or garbage bags, and for a couple weeks I was sleeping on a yoga mat. As it turns out. I really enjoyed this. I loved this way of living and was having a blast. The idea that I really didn’t need much to survive and be happy was incredibly freeing. However I didn’t associate this with being minimalist or rather a way of life, so it wasn’t long before I moved into my new apartment and all my luxuries were unpacked. In a short amount of time I was also earning more money from taking on a new job, which interestingly was around the time when my binge eating problem started to take off.

Fumio really inspired me. So much so that I looked at my current room and all the things in it and decided, it’s time I make a change. First thing to go was my big desk, which was replaced with my small milk crate desk inspired by my favourite cafe @littleroguemelbourne. I went through all of the stuff in and of the desk, discarding left, right and centre, photographing receipts and old documents so that I could discard the filing cabinet. I also moved onto clearing out my wardrobe and shrinking it to 3 pairs of shoes, 7 shirts, 9 pant items and the Professor Paul outfit. The result, is right here:

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You probably won’t notice a big change cause I didn’t show a before shot, but these mirrors used to be covered in pictures. You couldn’t see anything.

Not only did I sigh a huge breath of relief on Sunday evening when I went to bed but when I woke up on Monday morning I was ecstatic. I wanted to wake up. I was certainly excited because something new had just happened but it was a change that really affirmed a new stage in my life.
I felt like I was moving in a new positive direction.
Throughout the week I continued to gain inspiration from Fumio’s words and found more things that were really unnecessary to my life. Yesterday, old records for my record player were thrown out and from there I decided that I also didn’t need as many coffee mugs for myself anymore. I have seriously gained a sense of relief and I’ve actually started feeling the happiest I’ve felt since the start of the year. My new friend Elcid came around last night and we had a casual jam that resulted in writing a new song together that may never amount to anything but felt incredible to create.

From writing in this blog I’ve gone from feeling a creative struggle, to hustling as hard as I can and never feeling good enough, to feeling a sense of peace and not a sense of self-consciousness.

I don’t believe minimalism is the only way to experience these feelings, I realise there are other things like travelling, exploration and closeness with God that produce them too, however, this for me has seemed to really light a fire. Still, it’s very early days in terms of living this way, but I believe it’s something that I want to continue exercising. I can’t believe the freedom I’m feeling. So if you’re going through some rough times, feeling un-motivated, un-inspired, un-happy, sick of your life and down right depressed or just low on self-worth, I would highly recommend flicking through the pages of this book. No pressure, but from one human being to another, I want to share the idea with you.
I also want to put it out there that I would love to meet Fumio Sasaki in the future, sit down with him and thank him for being a bold individual and inspiring me.

Thank you for reading this, I truly am grateful for your attention and hope I’ve brought value today!

Come say hey, in whatever way, I love ya.

Professor Paul

 

Nicotine Fiend Feat. SAB

14/06/17 | 8:07am
– NICOTINE FIEND –
In this blog I want to open up about the meaning behind my verse. Put it all on the table. It’s embarrassing and to others might seem stupid, but let’s go!

Ya’ll who don’t know me, I don’t smoke. So I’m not a Nicotine Fiend. However, earlier this year after I’d just split with my girlfriend, moved houses, changed jobs and released my second single ‘flo’ I started to slip. I didn’t slip into drugs or alcohol cause I’m not about that, but I slipped to something that I am about, food. To give you context, at this stage I was scheduling my life from the AM to the PM and put a lot of hours into my music. It required a fair amount of discipline and as I continued to try and balance these things I slowly started giving into comfort. Before I knew it food was one of the most prominent things on my mind, because it gave me a relief from the pressure. I let myself go a couple times and I distinctly remember eating a box of cookies, a bag of chips downing an energy drink and going through cheap coles tim tams like they were nothing in one sitting. That was my first crazy binge. And honestly, it was awful. From this moment it only got worse and I continued the behaviour. I started to reading ‘Brain Over Binge’ by Kathryn Hansen to try and change what I’d just dug myself into but even when I was really giving it a go, I would cave and wake up the next day not hungry. For about a week I didn’t know what hunger felt like anymore. It was actually scary. At this point I was fed up with how I was treating myself and my body, fed up that I wasn’t making a change. So I started to write. The first half of my verse is really a pent up frustration of the battle of overcoming my new found addiction to food. The second half came a little later on when I had gotten myself into a slightly better situation. It embodies my determination to overcome the addiction and not let it hold me down from smashing my dreams and goals. This has probably been the biggest emotional struggle for me this year.

I had people telling me left, right and centre that I shouldn’t worry about it, because it’s just food. You know, how can food be that bad for you. But I don’t think they understood the principle that ANYTHING can be addictive, and when you’re addicted to something it’s not a casual affair, it’s damn controlling! So no offence to those people but I didn’t listen to their advice, because eating habits once their learned will be carried on until you break them, and I knew that if I kept the habit of binge eating I would be the new Biggie. Much love to Biggie but that’s not how I see myself in the future in terms of size and weight. I happily see myself as becoming the rapper that he was, that dude is an OG bossman.

Even recently I have struggled to some degree with eating too much, however, I won’t tolerate binge eating now. I won’t tolerate eating bad foods regularly in my diet. I won’t tolerate relying on caffeine for long periods of time. I won’t tolerate it. Because if I do I will never beat my habits for the long term.
So, Nicotine Fiend is really Paul the Food Fiend.

My homie @searnbarness pipes in with his verse that gets me so G’d up. He really brings home the relentless attitude and paints a picture of what I want my life to look like. I’m inspired by his verse and in this process have learned a lot from him.
We actually go way back to Zephyr Street Acoustic club. I was 14 and he was 13 when we first met playing guitar in Hervey Bay. The guy oozes enthusiasm and has been truly a person I’ve enjoyed having in my inner circle. You are who you hang around, and I hope I have become a little more like Sean. He’s also predominantly 1/2 of SeaNic Sounds.

Anyway, this song is for you, if you struggle and feel like achieving something is impossible. This is us saying no matter what it is you can achieve it and it is worth it. For now and for the future.

I really love you for reading this, and if it relates to you please DM, comment, share, or like. I know I’m not the only one who goes through hard times and I love talking ’bout them, we all need to.

Life is uncomfortable, but we grow when we endure it so hang in there.

@professor_paul

Feature photo shot by @becshoots

My Creative Hustle VI

Thursday 08/06/17 | 9:51am

On Tuesday this week I realised just how much shit I’m in. I haven’t done anything wrong in terms of law, but I really got some perspective on the mountain I’m trying to climb.

It all started when I decided to head to a free APRA night in the valley where some guest speakers talked about accounting and tax for musicians/bands. I was fine, managing to get my head around the tax wasn’t too tricky, but as soon as @deenamusic started her presentation on budgets I could feel the intensity rise in my stomach. She was so REAL! I loved it, not sugar coating a dollar. Her experience working with @thejunglegiants was used as an example and the numbers were crazy. It really opened my eyes. It really made me realise where I am right now. Grassroots. I’m talking, it costs $20+ thousand to tour kinda numbers, where you break even or lose money. That’s what I made last year working 2 to 3 jobs. I have a big climb ahead.

The hunger inside of me begun to grow. My bike ride home consisted of ‘I can do this’ chanting in the cold wind. There’s nothing I want to do more than make rap music that I can tour and share with others, which made me realise all of the challenges ahead have to be faced and have to be climbed. I don’t have another option. So I tell myself I can do it. Because I know that I can and I want to.

This morning has been tricky. I am making a commitment to posting daily on social media, something I’ve never done before, and it’s cool but on the inside I’m totally freaking. I can feel the growing pains from so many directions right now. Rap, Blog, Vlog, Social Media. It’s crazy. I find that all I can do is grit my teeth and keep going. It’s definitely fun, and I enjoy making stuff but it’s also extremely hard. I have no idea what I’m doing. I’m literally just trying to better myself in every area I can.

I am smiling at the same time though, knowing that this is forcing me to grow is amazing. Because I’m out of my comfort zone, and that purely means I’m going to grow and I’m getting closer to that tour. I’m getting closer to that hit song. I’m getting tested. If I can push through this and the million other moments like it I can do anything. I already know that I can do anything.

If you see me looking all stressed out, I’m feeling intense but I am loving it. I couldn’t be more grateful for these challenges ahead of me. I am totally on the verge of crippling myself in copious amounts of escapism and binge eating, but I won’t. I will tough this out because that’s how my mum raised me, and what I’m fighting for is bigger than myself.

I’ve been reading ‘Jab, Jab, Jab Right Hook’ by @garyvee this week.
@_Instagav, @_dyllinger and @pineapplejam are still camping out in my lounge room. I love  having them around. And also @carlostrebilcock has been an insane help getting ‘Life Of PP’ off the ground. 100. We’re all keeping it 100. Also, big love to @becshoots for capturing my latest single artwork with @seanbarness. Seriously excited to put ‘Nicotine Fiend’ on the table.

And you, thank you for reading some of my story. I hope you keep up with the weekly updates and find it valuable to your life.

Even though life is crazy, I love you,

Professor Paul

My Creative Hustle – II

Saturday | 06/05/17 | 12:58pm

Sup homes,

to paint a picture of what I’m up to right now, I’m sitting on the couch at The Barn Recording Studio in the middle of flippin’ nowhere. Well it’s somewhere, but let’s just say I can’t ride a bike to where we’re at. It’s secluded. To the right of me there is a mixing desk about 3/4’s the size of my body, to the left of me @lachlanholdorf is doing his engineering log book and in the huge recording room in front @Troysaunders is laying down a bass fill.
To be honest, it feels very cool being in this space. I woke up today and looked out of the cottage window and immediately couldn’t believe that I was living this out. Being in a studio and creating music is totally the dream. I mean I do this anyway on a day to day basis in my own room, the difference is there’s other people involved and the music I’m working on is somebody else’s. I don’t think I really appreciate that I create music as much as I could. It’s really such a wonderful thing that I do and man, I’m so grateful for it and my idols that continue to inspire me. If there wasn’t a @Logic, @Eminem or @champagnepapi I really would be lost.

Anyway, I didn’t spend too much time on the post yesterday so it’s currently Sunday the 7th of May and I’m sitting at the grand piano with my laptop. There’s an array of fancy, cool, expensive microphones setup in this place and lots of freedom to roam/lounge around. We literally slept in the studio last night and I was lucky enough to take refuge in @rickysaunders’ swag that was warm and comfy.
But To get you up to speed yesterday the boys @silknoak laid down the beds to both tracks we’re working on. This took some time to get right because it’s really critical that the foundation is solid. Realistically that’s the most important part of the song, because if the base isn’t right it doesn’t matter how much fancy sprinkles you put on top it won’t taste good. Think about it, would you eat dog poo if it had mnm’s and marshmallows on top? I wouldn’t! So why would you listen to music if there’s no togetherness? You probably wouldn’t, unless you were at my place and I was showing you my dog poo. If we become friends there’s a good chance I’ll do that, and even let you smell it if you’re lucky.

Okay let’s bring it back.

Because the focus was on Bass, Guitar and Drums yesterday my role as the Trumpet man was temporarily disarmed (enter Mr. Documentarian!). This was pretty cool, I just hung around and shot footage while the boys bantered and did some serious slugging. Oh, and I had the privilege of grabbing @lachlanholdorf’s cymbals for ‘Virus’, the second song they tracked. This was pretty cool, I genuinely enjoyed the job and it meant I got to stare at some dope drum playing close up for most of the afternoon. It was a long day but realistically I chilled. Right now @becccaahhhh is laying down some keys while I wait to lay trumpet on the jam.

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I was jus’ playin’ the fool cause I thought the grand piano was cool. – shot by @rickysaunders

In the back of my head I’m thinking about coffee. There’s a little brewing machine that takes ground coffee and the teams been banging it down. I really am excited to do the same except I’ve been limiting my intake lately. I know it sounds precious but when I have coffee, I go bloody nuts most times, and with this gross head cold hanging round it’s maybe not the wisest thing to do. I also tend to rely on it for helping me with my general mood, like I feel better when I have coffee so I drink more of it. And then I drink too much and wake up with a mad coffee hangover. So yeah, I’m gonna be all good just right now I’m having a little low in my energy and emotional feels. I’ll probably smash out a little workout in half hour or so. Not having coffee is not the end of the world. Obsession over.

@Troysaunders and I just did a quick workout which felt super good, it definitely got my mind off the coffee and hit me with a shot of dopamine. Straight after that @rickysaunders comes out of the control room raring to do some vocal takes and we go up to the cottage to steam some water for lubing the vocal chords and run my super quick warm-up routine (la-la-la-la-la-la-la-la-laaaaa).

We spent the rest of the day laying down what we could, but quickly realised that there was a shortage of time on our hands and we were going to go over.
By the time we’d put the last take down it was approx. 7:30pm and we’d run two and a half hours overtime. 
However, some serious progression with both songs had abounded and although it was clear more time needed to be spent polishing them and adding extra tracks head way really had been made.

@rickysaunders and @Troysaunders are very dedicated individuals when it comes to music and even though it’s not quite where they want it, they will work to finish the tracks no matter what it takes. Their drive for music is at it’s core very similar to mine.

So we packed down and it was around 9pm when the lock was set on the Barn. We drove home and shared our perspectives of the weekend, concluding that the week ahead was only going to be bigger for them as they gear up for the @thesilknoakshow on Friday.
It was also truly enjoyable sharing some late night subway together. (I really am thankful, the bro’s came through and shouted me a pulled-pork footlong!!! I love you guys).

The experience for me was great for my creativity. Not to mention a perfect environment for the hustle. I’m going to eat my dinner now, thank you for reading and as always I’d love to know about your experiences, please share in a comment, message or snapchat (Tooooomato 5o’s).

love, just love,
Professor Paul

P.s. I made a vlog of the weekend, so you can see first hand what it was like in the studio here. 

 

My Creative Hustle – I

04/05/17 | 11:05am

Good morning,

I’d like to acknowledge that today is in fact May the 4th and I can’t continue without preaching that @StarWars is my favourite movie franchise and has inspired me since the tender age of 5. My favourite movie when I was younger was Episode 1 The Phantom Menace, but over the years I really have attached myself to loving them all. As a kid I used to run around the back yard with my neighbours playing @StarWars most afternoons. My imagination was filled with owning a pod racer, wielding a lightsaber and bringing peace to the galaxy by melting the necks of any separatist droid in my way, (or hacking at some innocent tree with a stick that always broke, sorry Bobby I swear I won’t treat you like that).
I love the wisdom of Yoda and the flashy camera work by @Georgelucas too, it’s a series that adds value to my life even today. If you’re no @StarWars fan that’s cool I’m gonna move on, but I couldn’t keep going without confessing how much of a nerd I am about it.

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My marmie bought me this when I was 17. You’re never too old R2-D2.


In the last week I’ve come around in a good way. @Garyvee has inspired me and I’ve started tackling all the tasks in front of me with an incredible amount of discipline. It felt like I was finally being myself again, after spending some time with anxiety. Because if I’m honest, I love to hustle. I know that I love to hustle because it brings so much value to my life by doing it. Hustling has only made me better. Even though it can be hard, tiring and take all your energy at times, what is achieved can really take your breath away. I may not seem like I’ve achieved much on the outside right now. But on the inside I believe that I have. In my room there are goals on a whiteboard that I stare at every single day, and what’s more is that they slowly get replaced with new goals because I’m ticking them off. The funny thing about that is that they only seem to get ticked off as a result of my hustle, and to some degree how hard I’m hustling. I relate a lot to @Garyvee because I see myself at his age doing what he’s doing, in fact I see myself right now wanting to be doing what he’s doing. Which is being disciplined to work my butt off.

In light of this change in pace I have decided to start a new series of blogs titled “My Creative Hustle”. I have the same intention as my last series, (share my life, talk about ups and downs and encourage others to tell their stories) the only change is that “Hustle” best captures what I’m about in this moment. I am not struggling anymore, I am hustling. Sure there are still things going on in my head that really make me question myself, anxieties niggling at me, voices in my head at times but the nature of who I am is switching up a gear. So I am very proud to announce this.

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The crowd from @SaharaBeck, was definitely havin’ a ball in this see of people. 

In light of my change, I had some cool experiences in seeing @SaharaBeck and @ regurgitators thanks to the FREE @Stonescornerfestival. Admittedly, I had worked a full day on the coffee machine, went out for a drink with homies from @belaromacoffeecentre then linked up with @silknoak and @Karriehaywardmusic for another boogie and a very messy run/boisterous walk to McDonalds. I only had 2 beers but I was definitely a clown on the town.
@SaharaBeck absolutely nailed her set. It was impossible to not want to cheer and when she ripped one of her power ballads, I had shivers down to my shins… I actually stood with my mouth open most of that song, jumping up and down like a little girl who gets ice-cream on a weeknight, it was THAT powerful. A wonderful experience.

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Patiently gettin’ keen for @Wombatsofficial to tear up the stage. 

The next day was even crazier! My ex-bass player Luke Martin (doesn’t have insta…) and I headed to the @Wombatsofficial concert. This was hella-vicious. I mean @thejunglegiants started the night and played classics like ‘She’s a Riot’ and ‘You’ve got something’ which meant I fully blew the boogie metre! So bad that the girl dancing to the side of us asked what I was on, to which Luke naturally replied ‘Meth’ without hesitation. He said to me later “I wanted to tell her after that this is you sober, but I think it’s funnier left unsaid”. I had to let it go, that girl thought I was on Meth, I wasn’t, but the music was too good to really care. @Milkychance jumped up next and we kept going in the mosh with some new found friends, who were eagerly anticipating the infamous @Wombatsofficial. I went to the concert with a limited knowledge of them, however I was transfixed during their set even though it’s not the music I’m making right now. I couldn’t help but feel even more focused on hustling. Hustling because I want to get that tight someday, tight enough that I can play to an audience of 5000+ at Riverstage as a headliner. Definitely, you might look at me right now and think, this guy is dreaming, and I’d say, you’re right. I’d also say, sit back and watch me tick these goals, it won’t happen tomorrow however that doesn’t mean I’m going to stop hustling for it. I really do want to climb the mountain that is in front of me, and the mountain after that. I have so much to learn. Especially in Hip-Hop. My brother @seanbarness made me realise this when we hung out yesterday. I know so little, and the more I learn the more I still won’t know. I feel humbled in his presence and by his abilities, it’s the reality check I need often. I believe that’s the sign of a valuable friend.

I wanna wrap up the summary of my week by saying thank you to the people who have shared their stories since starting this blog, I respect your openness towards me. Please continue sharing via a comment/Facebook/Snapchat (Tooooomato 5o’s) it’s so dope hearing your response.

As for my direction here, I intend this new series to be honest and truthful to where I am right now, in hopes that my accounts tell the story of how I became the next @KendrickLamar in years to come.

Be bold and may the force be with you my homie,
Professor Paul

 

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This is my friend Luke. Luke is the most dedicated bass player you’ll ever meet. Luke wants to be in a band like the Wombats. Luke loves music and will sleep on your floor for a week with no pillow just to record, and he’ll bring the coffee machine. Luke wants to be in a Brisbane based band. If you need this incredible specimen in your life you can contact him here: lukemartin97@icloud.com or by messaging me. Luke also enjoys bear hugs and beers. This is a very special opportunity not to be missed…