My Creative Hustle VI

Thursday 08/06/17 | 9:51am

On Tuesday this week I realised just how much shit I’m in. I haven’t done anything wrong in terms of law, but I really got some perspective on the mountain I’m trying to climb.

It all started when I decided to head to a free APRA night in the valley where some guest speakers talked about accounting and tax for musicians/bands. I was fine, managing to get my head around the tax wasn’t too tricky, but as soon as @deenamusic started her presentation on budgets I could feel the intensity rise in my stomach. She was so REAL! I loved it, not sugar coating a dollar. Her experience working with @thejunglegiants was used as an example and the numbers were crazy. It really opened my eyes. It really made me realise where I am right now. Grassroots. I’m talking, it costs $20+ thousand to tour kinda numbers, where you break even or lose money. That’s what I made last year working 2 to 3 jobs. I have a big climb ahead.

The hunger inside of me begun to grow. My bike ride home consisted of ‘I can do this’ chanting in the cold wind. There’s nothing I want to do more than make rap music that I can tour and share with others, which made me realise all of the challenges ahead have to be faced and have to be climbed. I don’t have another option. So I tell myself I can do it. Because I know that I can and I want to.

This morning has been tricky. I am making a commitment to posting daily on social media, something I’ve never done before, and it’s cool but on the inside I’m totally freaking. I can feel the growing pains from so many directions right now. Rap, Blog, Vlog, Social Media. It’s crazy. I find that all I can do is grit my teeth and keep going. It’s definitely fun, and I enjoy making stuff but it’s also extremely hard. I have no idea what I’m doing. I’m literally just trying to better myself in every area I can.

I am smiling at the same time though, knowing that this is forcing me to grow is amazing. Because I’m out of my comfort zone, and that purely means I’m going to grow and I’m getting closer to that tour. I’m getting closer to that hit song. I’m getting tested. If I can push through this and the million other moments like it I can do anything. I already know that I can do anything.

If you see me looking all stressed out, I’m feeling intense but I am loving it. I couldn’t be more grateful for these challenges ahead of me. I am totally on the verge of crippling myself in copious amounts of escapism and binge eating, but I won’t. I will tough this out because that’s how my mum raised me, and what I’m fighting for is bigger than myself.

I’ve been reading ‘Jab, Jab, Jab Right Hook’ by @garyvee this week.
@_Instagav, @_dyllinger and @pineapplejam are still camping out in my lounge room. I love  having them around. And also @carlostrebilcock has been an insane help getting ‘Life Of PP’ off the ground. 100. We’re all keeping it 100. Also, big love to @becshoots for capturing my latest single artwork with @seanbarness. Seriously excited to put ‘Nicotine Fiend’ on the table.

And you, thank you for reading some of my story. I hope you keep up with the weekly updates and find it valuable to your life.

Even though life is crazy, I love you,

Professor Paul

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My Creative Hustle – IV

22/05/17 8:18pm

Good evening, I say eloquently,

and welcome to another instalment of my life. Produced by me, acted by me and edited by none other than, me.

This is a me affair, and if you’re wondering why all the fuss of dilly dallying, I couldn’t quite tell you. I’m merely rattling off the contents of my brain straight to the page. Sure, that may be encouraged by the cheap white wine I am currently sipping on, but typically I don’t even know what to expect when it comes to my brain. So what the heck!

Lately I admit my focus has been vlog orientated and the attention I’ve given to writing about my life and documenting my hustle has been put slightly on the back burner. So I am very eager to be writing right now.

This last week has been interesting and I’m going to touch on it because I am grateful of the progress made. To sum it up I made headway with my latest single, which by the time of this blog’s release will be announced, it’s title: ‘Nicotine Fiend’. It features my homie @seanbarness, who I am so thankful to have worked with, as he has taught me so much about being a rapper indirectly by purely being a hardcore OG in and out the booth.
This week I also worked with @chloeminogue and @kevincollette on their respective tracks, etching out some solid demos layer by layer.
Something I realised, whilst working with both of these awesome people is that for a while there I wasn’t fully engaged in their projects as their producer. While this blog was still ‘My Creative Struggle’  most of my energy was spent entirely on my own project, which I am grateful for, however it really stunted my ability to grow. I believe this was the case because I wasn’t fully immersing myself into everything that I was doing for them. I was only making an effort on their projects because I’d signed up to them, not because I wanted to be the bomb and make killer music. Now that I look back on that it’s rather evident that I want to commit to these guys all of the way, for I know that I will not produce anything of value if I don’t. It’s either all in or not at all, binary, 1’s and 0’s. Truth be told that’s a phrase I picked up from @GaryVee this afternoon in his vlog. But it’s true, you’re either full hustle or nothing at all, because it’s not possible to have half your body in the water, you’re either in the water or you’re not.

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This made an addition to my wardrobe mirror collection, as Goku really developed my hardworking mindset. I loved that he would grit his teeth and overcome everything he set his mind to in DBZ. Definitely a childhood favourite worth remembering. (Sure I used to pull constipated faces regularly as I tried to go super sayan but hey… It was worth it). 

Maintaining exercise a little each day, has helped in terms of remaining more emotionally stable for me this week. I’ve got a chart that has a workout for everyday of the week blue tacked to my wall which kept me in check easily. I’m pretty sure it’s meant for the ladies, but I liked werkin’ dat ass and don’t care which neighbour saw through my balcony door at 4:45am (please take a seat). I recommend it to anyone who doesn’t have much time, but needs a clear head. Check it here. (If you have a killer routine that you follow, please link it to me <3)

As you also might know I made a commitment to eating healthier too. This is fuelled by the fact that I want to be an absolute machine rapper and life liver for the long haul, and the other truth that I HAVE treated my body poorly at times this year. An example, I had a family pack of Arnott’s biscuits set aside for my cuppa’s this week. Finished, in two days, gone. This was over Saturday and Sunday night. Definitely wasn’t an encouraging moment considering I hadn’t been that overboard with food in a while. However I’m more determined than ever to stay on track with meal preps and committing to keeping my eating in line. More pumpkin soup to come this week, that stuff is liquid gold.

This week  an area of my life that has been on my mind is scheduling. It got a bit out of hand at the start of the year and I’ve been hesitant to start again, but I know if I’m going to make the most of my time on this earth and do the things that I want to, I’ll need to schedule. It might seem like an overkill, but realistically I must make the effort to try. My time spent not at work isn’t always free, and I’ve got to allocate it wisely, to maximise the life that I do live. This time I am going to incorporate days off. Something I didn’t do prior. After last week it was evident that having rest really has it’s place as I stepped back and took Saturday and Sunday off. Working everyday, either at work on music is easy for me to do and get caught up in. Taking time off, really refreshed my perspective, I need this if I’m going to reach my goals.

Those were the key points in my week that I could think of tonight, so I’ma wrap it up with a quick message before I head off and do some reading. I want to say thank you. To everyone that’s in my life right now. Honestly, life looks very different now to what it did a year ago and I have been missing that past of late, however, I want to be grateful for what I have now. What is happening NOW is special, and all of you who are apart of my life and what I do are the reason that NOW is the best chapter.

The day I say I’m not in the best chapter of my life, is the day I’m not grateful enough to see what’s really good around me. Like they say, the grass is always greener on the other side, but really it’s greener where you water it. – @scott_loveday (not the original owner of this quote, but the man that has really taught it to me this past year)

Peace and love my brothers and sisters,

Professor Paul

My Creative Hustle – II

Saturday | 06/05/17 | 12:58pm

Sup homes,

to paint a picture of what I’m up to right now, I’m sitting on the couch at The Barn Recording Studio in the middle of flippin’ nowhere. Well it’s somewhere, but let’s just say I can’t ride a bike to where we’re at. It’s secluded. To the right of me there is a mixing desk about 3/4’s the size of my body, to the left of me @lachlanholdorf is doing his engineering log book and in the huge recording room in front @Troysaunders is laying down a bass fill.
To be honest, it feels very cool being in this space. I woke up today and looked out of the cottage window and immediately couldn’t believe that I was living this out. Being in a studio and creating music is totally the dream. I mean I do this anyway on a day to day basis in my own room, the difference is there’s other people involved and the music I’m working on is somebody else’s. I don’t think I really appreciate that I create music as much as I could. It’s really such a wonderful thing that I do and man, I’m so grateful for it and my idols that continue to inspire me. If there wasn’t a @Logic, @Eminem or @champagnepapi I really would be lost.

Anyway, I didn’t spend too much time on the post yesterday so it’s currently Sunday the 7th of May and I’m sitting at the grand piano with my laptop. There’s an array of fancy, cool, expensive microphones setup in this place and lots of freedom to roam/lounge around. We literally slept in the studio last night and I was lucky enough to take refuge in @rickysaunders’ swag that was warm and comfy.
But To get you up to speed yesterday the boys @silknoak laid down the beds to both tracks we’re working on. This took some time to get right because it’s really critical that the foundation is solid. Realistically that’s the most important part of the song, because if the base isn’t right it doesn’t matter how much fancy sprinkles you put on top it won’t taste good. Think about it, would you eat dog poo if it had mnm’s and marshmallows on top? I wouldn’t! So why would you listen to music if there’s no togetherness? You probably wouldn’t, unless you were at my place and I was showing you my dog poo. If we become friends there’s a good chance I’ll do that, and even let you smell it if you’re lucky.

Okay let’s bring it back.

Because the focus was on Bass, Guitar and Drums yesterday my role as the Trumpet man was temporarily disarmed (enter Mr. Documentarian!). This was pretty cool, I just hung around and shot footage while the boys bantered and did some serious slugging. Oh, and I had the privilege of grabbing @lachlanholdorf’s cymbals for ‘Virus’, the second song they tracked. This was pretty cool, I genuinely enjoyed the job and it meant I got to stare at some dope drum playing close up for most of the afternoon. It was a long day but realistically I chilled. Right now @becccaahhhh is laying down some keys while I wait to lay trumpet on the jam.

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I was jus’ playin’ the fool cause I thought the grand piano was cool. – shot by @rickysaunders

In the back of my head I’m thinking about coffee. There’s a little brewing machine that takes ground coffee and the teams been banging it down. I really am excited to do the same except I’ve been limiting my intake lately. I know it sounds precious but when I have coffee, I go bloody nuts most times, and with this gross head cold hanging round it’s maybe not the wisest thing to do. I also tend to rely on it for helping me with my general mood, like I feel better when I have coffee so I drink more of it. And then I drink too much and wake up with a mad coffee hangover. So yeah, I’m gonna be all good just right now I’m having a little low in my energy and emotional feels. I’ll probably smash out a little workout in half hour or so. Not having coffee is not the end of the world. Obsession over.

@Troysaunders and I just did a quick workout which felt super good, it definitely got my mind off the coffee and hit me with a shot of dopamine. Straight after that @rickysaunders comes out of the control room raring to do some vocal takes and we go up to the cottage to steam some water for lubing the vocal chords and run my super quick warm-up routine (la-la-la-la-la-la-la-la-laaaaa).

We spent the rest of the day laying down what we could, but quickly realised that there was a shortage of time on our hands and we were going to go over.
By the time we’d put the last take down it was approx. 7:30pm and we’d run two and a half hours overtime. 
However, some serious progression with both songs had abounded and although it was clear more time needed to be spent polishing them and adding extra tracks head way really had been made.

@rickysaunders and @Troysaunders are very dedicated individuals when it comes to music and even though it’s not quite where they want it, they will work to finish the tracks no matter what it takes. Their drive for music is at it’s core very similar to mine.

So we packed down and it was around 9pm when the lock was set on the Barn. We drove home and shared our perspectives of the weekend, concluding that the week ahead was only going to be bigger for them as they gear up for the @thesilknoakshow on Friday.
It was also truly enjoyable sharing some late night subway together. (I really am thankful, the bro’s came through and shouted me a pulled-pork footlong!!! I love you guys).

The experience for me was great for my creativity. Not to mention a perfect environment for the hustle. I’m going to eat my dinner now, thank you for reading and as always I’d love to know about your experiences, please share in a comment, message or snapchat (Tooooomato 5o’s).

love, just love,
Professor Paul

P.s. I made a vlog of the weekend, so you can see first hand what it was like in the studio here. 

 

My Creative Hustle – I

04/05/17 | 11:05am

Good morning,

I’d like to acknowledge that today is in fact May the 4th and I can’t continue without preaching that @StarWars is my favourite movie franchise and has inspired me since the tender age of 5. My favourite movie when I was younger was Episode 1 The Phantom Menace, but over the years I really have attached myself to loving them all. As a kid I used to run around the back yard with my neighbours playing @StarWars most afternoons. My imagination was filled with owning a pod racer, wielding a lightsaber and bringing peace to the galaxy by melting the necks of any separatist droid in my way, (or hacking at some innocent tree with a stick that always broke, sorry Bobby I swear I won’t treat you like that).
I love the wisdom of Yoda and the flashy camera work by @Georgelucas too, it’s a series that adds value to my life even today. If you’re no @StarWars fan that’s cool I’m gonna move on, but I couldn’t keep going without confessing how much of a nerd I am about it.

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My marmie bought me this when I was 17. You’re never too old R2-D2.


In the last week I’ve come around in a good way. @Garyvee has inspired me and I’ve started tackling all the tasks in front of me with an incredible amount of discipline. It felt like I was finally being myself again, after spending some time with anxiety. Because if I’m honest, I love to hustle. I know that I love to hustle because it brings so much value to my life by doing it. Hustling has only made me better. Even though it can be hard, tiring and take all your energy at times, what is achieved can really take your breath away. I may not seem like I’ve achieved much on the outside right now. But on the inside I believe that I have. In my room there are goals on a whiteboard that I stare at every single day, and what’s more is that they slowly get replaced with new goals because I’m ticking them off. The funny thing about that is that they only seem to get ticked off as a result of my hustle, and to some degree how hard I’m hustling. I relate a lot to @Garyvee because I see myself at his age doing what he’s doing, in fact I see myself right now wanting to be doing what he’s doing. Which is being disciplined to work my butt off.

In light of this change in pace I have decided to start a new series of blogs titled “My Creative Hustle”. I have the same intention as my last series, (share my life, talk about ups and downs and encourage others to tell their stories) the only change is that “Hustle” best captures what I’m about in this moment. I am not struggling anymore, I am hustling. Sure there are still things going on in my head that really make me question myself, anxieties niggling at me, voices in my head at times but the nature of who I am is switching up a gear. So I am very proud to announce this.

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The crowd from @SaharaBeck, was definitely havin’ a ball in this see of people. 

In light of my change, I had some cool experiences in seeing @SaharaBeck and @ regurgitators thanks to the FREE @Stonescornerfestival. Admittedly, I had worked a full day on the coffee machine, went out for a drink with homies from @belaromacoffeecentre then linked up with @silknoak and @Karriehaywardmusic for another boogie and a very messy run/boisterous walk to McDonalds. I only had 2 beers but I was definitely a clown on the town.
@SaharaBeck absolutely nailed her set. It was impossible to not want to cheer and when she ripped one of her power ballads, I had shivers down to my shins… I actually stood with my mouth open most of that song, jumping up and down like a little girl who gets ice-cream on a weeknight, it was THAT powerful. A wonderful experience.

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Patiently gettin’ keen for @Wombatsofficial to tear up the stage. 

The next day was even crazier! My ex-bass player Luke Martin (doesn’t have insta…) and I headed to the @Wombatsofficial concert. This was hella-vicious. I mean @thejunglegiants started the night and played classics like ‘She’s a Riot’ and ‘You’ve got something’ which meant I fully blew the boogie metre! So bad that the girl dancing to the side of us asked what I was on, to which Luke naturally replied ‘Meth’ without hesitation. He said to me later “I wanted to tell her after that this is you sober, but I think it’s funnier left unsaid”. I had to let it go, that girl thought I was on Meth, I wasn’t, but the music was too good to really care. @Milkychance jumped up next and we kept going in the mosh with some new found friends, who were eagerly anticipating the infamous @Wombatsofficial. I went to the concert with a limited knowledge of them, however I was transfixed during their set even though it’s not the music I’m making right now. I couldn’t help but feel even more focused on hustling. Hustling because I want to get that tight someday, tight enough that I can play to an audience of 5000+ at Riverstage as a headliner. Definitely, you might look at me right now and think, this guy is dreaming, and I’d say, you’re right. I’d also say, sit back and watch me tick these goals, it won’t happen tomorrow however that doesn’t mean I’m going to stop hustling for it. I really do want to climb the mountain that is in front of me, and the mountain after that. I have so much to learn. Especially in Hip-Hop. My brother @seanbarness made me realise this when we hung out yesterday. I know so little, and the more I learn the more I still won’t know. I feel humbled in his presence and by his abilities, it’s the reality check I need often. I believe that’s the sign of a valuable friend.

I wanna wrap up the summary of my week by saying thank you to the people who have shared their stories since starting this blog, I respect your openness towards me. Please continue sharing via a comment/Facebook/Snapchat (Tooooomato 5o’s) it’s so dope hearing your response.

As for my direction here, I intend this new series to be honest and truthful to where I am right now, in hopes that my accounts tell the story of how I became the next @KendrickLamar in years to come.

Be bold and may the force be with you my homie,
Professor Paul

 

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This is my friend Luke. Luke is the most dedicated bass player you’ll ever meet. Luke wants to be in a band like the Wombats. Luke loves music and will sleep on your floor for a week with no pillow just to record, and he’ll bring the coffee machine. Luke wants to be in a Brisbane based band. If you need this incredible specimen in your life you can contact him here: lukemartin97@icloud.com or by messaging me. Luke also enjoys bear hugs and beers. This is a very special opportunity not to be missed… 

 

My Creative Struggle VII

26/04/17

3:48pm: Homie,

I’m doing well. Mentally rather decent these past few days. Since coming to terms with what I witnessed at the skatepark I totally have taken a more chilled approach to music. I don’t think I’m fully chill in the sense that I just make music whenever, I’m still cranking the alarm clock for 4-4:30am, cause I am without a doubt determined to be the next @Drake. But the way in which I spend my time is more chilled. I’ve started doing vocal warm ups before rapping. Yep, if you’re a neighbour of mine and reading this, it’s not a cat it’s me singing high notes in the shower along to the VocalWarmUp App… You can thank @Usher.

If you’re wondering “Why @Usher?” I was reading “Retire Young, Retire Rich” by @Robertkiyosaki and it was a chapter presenting an alternative to saving money. Mr.@Robertkiyosaki explains that in contrast to poor dad, his rich dad wouldn’t put such an emphasis on saving his money, instead he would spend it on things that would grow him as a person. He wasn’t buying fancy clothes (or new nike’s from the Melbourne HYPE store, Tom) he was buying books, enrolling in seminars and using the money to talk to other professionals. Suddenly it just clicked, I’ve been putting 10% of every pay check away each week for more than a year now and I have just saved it… Which yes is good, but I haven’t put the money to work. Anyway, I remember stumbling across @Usher‘s Masterclass on Facebook, it cost money so at the time I thought no, but after reading this I immediately jumped online and bought in.

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– Material Flashin’ – The New Nikes from Melbz

It’s a class on performance, and this dude can perform. To be honest, I’ve never actually been a fan of @Usher, but I have mad respect for his work ethic, achievement and discipline to taking what he does to the next level. Considering I really want to bring a next level experience to my live shows in the future I was keen. So the last lesson was on vocal warm ups, and since I want to be rapping for a long time I started doing it.
As well as doing vocal warm ups I’ve been throwing some super basic Hip-Hop Dance moves into each day. This has been super fun considering I enjoy a good boogie. I’ve never done any formal dancing, and if you know me, I’m a clumsy jelly legs most days! However, I’m determined to at least get some cool grooves down so that I can grow as a performer, also, I just genuinely love grooving to music and so knowing a few moves is helping me to get into the tunes even more.

This kinda does progress to something that I think needs addressing in my life right now.
My health. Body health. Like what I’m putting in and how it’s being treated. I think I’ve done a good job of working alongside the needs of my inner-self which I continue to do daily by journalling, but man I think my body is deserving of some serious lovin’… Don’t take that weird though. I know you took that weird. I think I thought it weird first… Please keep reading, that wasn’t funny.

Earlier this year, when I moved into my new place and became a fresh single homie I was doing quite well. In the sense that I was prepping meals, working super hard at music and landed a new job making coffee. However, somewhere along the lines I got twisted down a path of binge eating WHAM! @Troysaunders1 my housemate lost out on 3 bowls of his milo cereal because of me. What I mean is, I remember so clearly coming home at 12:30am, grabbing a prepped burrito from the fridge, eating it, and sitting at the counter with a box of milo cereal and a bottle of Milk topping up my bowl twice. Yep, this was 12:30am. When I got up for work at 4am, I was still drunk as a skunk off sugar. Will admit, not my proudest moment.

I have had more binge experiences since then, although by believing that bingeing just wasn’t me, like smoking isn’t me I don’t have a big drama with it anymore. But I forced my body through a lot of crap, and continue even now to eat crap here and there, I really think that it needs a break from it. Like I swear my body is yellin’ “Bro, chill. You’re an animal! I can’t handle you treating me like this and I’m gone fuck you up if you keep it up.”
Considering I want to be the next @Kanyewest too, I need to start listening.

As you’re probably aware my coffee intake is pretty consistent, I haven’t had a break from it in a while. Normally when I do have a break I feel so so good! I think that’ll be my first step, followed by a little research into healthier meals and daily scheduled exercise.

This is totally going to take some teeth grit, I will cry tears not being able to eat more helpings, or having coffees at work. However I’ve got my sights set on being the best I can be to reach new heights as a person, so I’ll do anything.

Stay tuned via Facebook/Instagram/Snapchat (Tooooomato 5o’s) for more posts on how this adventure goes!

Also, iff you want to see something dumb, head to @professor_paul on Insta G and check the picture with tetley tea bags, I genuinely thought I was creating comedy history… Which is certainly not what happened, but I still laugh to myself.

Love,
Professor Paul

P.s if you’ve had a problem with over eating and/or just being in a health dump, please drop comments or knowledge about your experiences here of via Facebook. Cause no joke, I was only getting a taste for how shit Binge eating can be. I genuinely care.

My Creative Struggle VI

– BREAKTHROUGH –

23/04/17

2:58pm: Today I made coffee’s and really felt like I smashed my latte art game. Crafting a tulip that didn’t look like a wrangled piece of puffy cloud… But as I came home after a pretty big day I recalled a few thoughts I had Friday afternoon at the Coops Skatepark.

It was pretty bare which meant an easy afternoon ride in terms of not getting absolutely obliterated from crossing someones path. I mean I’m the kinda dude that really would benefit from some traffic lights at that place. Jus’ sayin’. Anyway, I was just having a gander and admiring the other tricks being laid down at the park  until I noticed another guy skating who was just a bit different from the rest of us. Not different as in looks or skin colour etc. His attitude and behaviour was different. For the most part I was chill even when I fucked up simply because I know that I’m a total beginner and it’s going to take a long while for me to land tricks. Most of the other dudes seemed to be similar. But the skater dude I’m talking about was intensely absorbed by what he was doing that any wrong move was taking a toll on him. He was totally focused on landing a couple specific tricks and they just weren’t coming, which is fine in the grand scheme of things, cause let’s face it, skating is hard. However you could tell that each failed trick over the span of about 1/2 an hour was starting to really tick him off, so much so that he had literally just landed a dope grind, and went for a flick trick, failed, and progressed to stomping on his board… YOU JUST LANDED A GRIND!!! In this moment something crazy stood out to me and it was like the pin finally dropped in my head.

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This is not at the skatepark I just think the board looks cool from up here. Swag.


For the last couple months I have been the frustrated, board stomping skater dude. Except you could say I was the frustrated, saliva spitting rapper dude.
I realised in that moment, that I was skating and it was fun because I had no expectations of actually landing the tricks I was trying. Sure, I definitely wanted to, otherwise I wouldn’t be trying, but when I failed it wasn’t like, “YOU IDIOT, STUPID BOARD, TOM STOMP BOARD”.  That day I actually was landing tricks, not heaps but enough to make me feel like I was slowly improving, it was a fulfilling feeling. But I realised I’ve been the frustrated rapper dude who has expected the world of myself because I am trying to be the best, and let’s face it, the next @kendricklamar. So to me creating itself had lost it’s fun. I was putting my creativity through gruelling six hour sessions of writing/rapping and literally the only expectation was, be the best. Not just, have fun, rap and make something. It was like “you can’t afford to just make something when you’re trying to run the game, you can’t settle for anything less”.

Let me get this straight, I don’t want to settle for anything less, however when I’m trying to make music I think it’s a different story. You can’t force good songs, at least that’s what I’ve heard from people like @Kendricklamar, @Vincestaples and @Elizabeth_gilbert_writer. You can only attempt to create. Something I realised was that most of the time I’m going to fall off my skateboard or struggle to write a full verse,  and I’m not always going to be able to land a new trick in a day or write full tracks everyday but it’s letting myself be okay with that, and not expect so much. Sure, I can expect myself to get up and spend time on music but I can’t expect myself to write the next best song, or else I’m going to be the frustrated, saliva spitting rapper dude. That shit sucks.

“Appreciate more, and expect less each day.”@tonyrobbins

To some up, I looked at the skater dude the other day and thought, I get it. This makes total sense now, I have to expect less from myself making music like when I’m skateboarding. I don’t think it matters how good you become, because no joke I kept thinking in my head “I’ve done all of this work, I’m technically good enough, why I can’t I write this hit song” (As my frustration heightens) only to now realise that it don’t matter how technically good you are, it doesn’t mean you can put that song on paper. I haven’t been relaxed, I haven’t been open. In fact I’ve been tense and hard. I’ve experienced the feeling before too of getting carried away in music, I personally feel soft and malleable like a gooey marshmallow just giving way to the ebb and flow of a new idea. I really haven’t let myself have that.

So homie, I’ll touch on this again and let you know how I go changing my mind states.
If you have any thoughts on creative living or personally have a story, please get in touch with me here, or via @professorpaulcrawls Facebook page.

Luh you from the sea to the shore,
Professor Paul.

(I just introduced a new member to the family on @professor_paul insta, go ahead and meet him!)